Thursday, November 16, 2006

Full of memories.............

Another head hangs lowly, Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence, who are we mistaken
But you see it's not me, it's not my family In your head,

in your head they are fighting
With their tanks and their bombs And their bombs and their gunsIn your head,
In your head they are cryin'
In your head

Zombie
What's in your head, in your head
Zombie
Another mother's breakin' heart is taking over

when the violence causes silence We must be mistaken
It's the same old team since 1916 In your head,
In your head they're still fightin'With their tanks and their bombs And their bombs and their guns
In your head they are dyin'
The Cranberries -Zombie-
On: No Need To Argue (1994)

Sup, pals?!God, how much I miss them! Before a year no one really imagined this! All I remember that we used to gather near a terrace outside the college's cafeteria chattin', laughin', examinin' girls' butts and sometimes discussing a filming project usually produced by the KID. My gang was including the KID, Eihab & Saif (Baghday). The KID is still alive but lives somewhere far, the rest two died tragically on a violent blast last June. Also Rock Girl, I miss her so fuckin' much. I dunno if she got engaged yet or not, her last letter revealed that she's gonna be engaged to some dude this week. I'm so worried about her!I'm not believing myself saying this but I do miss that "country girl" too!
Bah! My heart painfully squeezes for the memory of the deceased Saif! My being refuses (till this moment) the truth of his death. He was my dearest friend since we were kids and everything reminds me by him; his photos, his CDs, his notebooks and his England soccer team shirt!
I still keep this stuff with me cuz I don't have the enough courage to face his family and give it back to them! I'm also keeping a personal photo for him inside my wallet! I had some dreams about Saif looked so real, I'm wondering if the dead people can visit their beloved ones in dreams or something like that.Every night, I beg my Allah to meet Saif one last time in the afterlife whatever my destiny is!Till when we gotta suffer? Have we reached to a dead end? Will these cleavers stop ripping Iraq apart? Shall we witness the Lord's revenge on the ground and punish those savages who don't hesitate to kill?! Will those orphans, widows and those bereaved ones wipe the tears and give up wailing on the memory of their dear ones?! What did we do to deserve all this? Is their any light of hope at the end of this gloomy scary tunnel?
Or just as Metallica's 'no leaf clover';
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just a freight train coming your way

6 comments:

Melantrys said...

*hugs you*

Well, it's not uncommon to dream about lost loved ones.
The dreams will become fewer with time...

Here's a suggestion, maybe you should write to Saif's family, tell them what you still have that is his and ask them what to do with it. Maybe they'll let you keep some of it - if that is what you want. I don't think I would if I were in your place, but ppl deal differently with these things.

*hugs again*

Kyubai said...

Hey,
cheer up man Saif is now in a better place and I think it is quite possible to recieve messages from a beloved one even if he is dead and I think that u should try to contact the parents of Saif it might be hard in the begining but believe me it will ease things up, well at least that is what I think but the only thing that I'm sure of is that God may never forget the doing of the cold hearted creminals in Iraq and if there is something that u should be sure of is that God may delay those people but He may never forget what they did.
take care and God bless u...

Confessions of a Malamute said...

I like Melantrys suggestion... here is another...

write Saif a letter. Say everything you wanted to say to him in it. Here we call it a Spirit Letter. It helps to remember those we love and to help clear your heart a little.

I feel for you. You are in my prayers. Im so very sorry for the pain you feel...

Caesar of Pentra said...

Thank you all for your real feelings!
Mel,
I think by your suggestion, but don't you think that they will blame me first for not visiting them in his funeral?! Besides, if they want his stuff back, how can I give it to'em? Packages delivery?? No, it doesn't work!

Kyubai,
Thanks for your visit to ma blog! I know that I'm sure of is that Allah may delay those people but He may never forget what they did. But till when? Iraqi people is going to be vanished!

Malamute,
I wrote that letter in my diarybook! I read it everyday! And I hope that it reaches Saif anyway possible!

Thanks Again, pals!

Miraj B. said...

I couldn't stop my tears reading this..

I wish Allah gives you the paitence and I know as you know deep in your heart that Saif is in heaven.

chikitita said...

May God help his family. I read about that incident on Kiddo's blog. It broke my heart. But he's in a better and safer place now.